When I think about the ACCFS Podcast I listened to recently titled "Unmet expectations" I hadn't expected to be applying the same phrasing to our family. However, the more I tried to pin down exactly where we are at right now the more it seemed to be the right mental attitude.
Dad is at Ossian Rehab and connecting very well with the therapists and the rest of his health care staff. I could go into the many details I researched which led us all around when looking for the perfect environment for him to thrive. But it was through more prayer and less looking at statistics, we felt peaceful about this spot and it hasn't let us down. When Dad was transferred there over a week and a half ago now we were all hoping to start seeing a hope for him to eventually come home. We started plans for remodeling our bathroom to become wheelchair accessible and many other similar ideas. But just 2 days after being there, insurance threw a major wrench into our thoughts and they made a decision that tried to strip us from our hope of ever getting to think of him being back at home. A decision that said, "We don't see enough improvement to continue trying to help him and it's time now to give up hope" is how it came across to me. But maybe I was just being an emotional daughter.
Thankfully, God's word doesn't let us stay without hope despite whatever insurance may say. And this doesn't mean that we are using whatever verses we can find to keep a positive mindset. Albeit positivity is important but definitely not more important than humbly relying on God's hope in all situations even if our wishes don't become reality. Whether crying or happy or confused I want to be all enveloped in God's words. I am reminded by one passage that reinforces the mental clarity that faith brings despite not knowing all the details which often can usher in a false sense of security.
II Timothy 1:7-10
7 For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.8 Be not thou therefore ashamed of the testimony of our Lord, nor of me his prisoner: but be thou partaker of the afflictions of the gospel according to the power of God;9 Who hath saved us, and called us with an holy calling, not according to our works, but according to his own purpose and grace, which was given us in Christ Jesus before the world began,10 But is now made manifest by the appearing of our Saviour Jesus Christ, who hath abolished death, and hath brought life and immortality to light through the gospel:
There have been many "God moments" along this journey so far. And I hope that mom and I can have some time to get them all down on paper but I am thankful for all of your prayers that I believe have made each of those moments happen.
So where are we at now? And what did I mean by unmet expectations? Our family has discussed the many possibilities such as Dad never being able to come home again all the way to if therapy could get him to where he was before the stroke. We are reevaluating what are expectation have been and are seeking joy in the present moments without looking too far ahead. We hope to keep him with his therapy team as long as possible and see his progress over these next few months. And we continue to be encouraged not only by Dad's awesome, smirky smile. But we've also been blessed to share some a fellowship of support. And for any men interested in spending some time with Dad in the evenings like watching a football game, listening to music, or chatting a friend of his started a google doc for people to sign up. Dad does really well with a couple people but too many could get overwhelming. Thanks to friends out there who have already helped out in so many ways like getting this document together or bringing food or just letting us talk, or cry, it out.
To see the schedule for men to stop by for an evening, click here.